Have i failed? Is it me? His sperm sample was good. That’s all he had to do. But me? I tried my best. I put every ounce of love, calm, patience, energy, time, vulnerability, belief and hope into those injections, scans and procedures…only to produce 5 measly eggs. Did you notice how it even spells… Continue reading IVF: IV’Failed
Dear friends, I probably owe you an explanation. I know I’ve been absent these last few years, and I don’t intend on always being in hiding, so I hope that door is still going to be open in the future. Some of you have tried to reach out, to offer to meet, have a coffee,… Continue reading Failing in friendships: fertility vs friends
This post is making me laugh already. I apologise for the title, but as i was about to start writing, i was reminded of my 24 year old male colleague’s date last week. He described how well the date was going in the restaurant, until suddenly, this extremely attractive young lady asked him to meow. Sensing… Continue reading Denied kitten adoption? What next? Meow.
Honestly, it baffles me. The days when my place of work served as a needed escape from my own baby related issues are long gone. Of course the topic is always going to surface in some way, but seriously, I am astounded. You are an intelligent group of people – you represent elite universities including… Continue reading What part of insensitive can you not understand?
Dear therapist, You got me thinking. I wasn’t sure how our session went yesterday, but my head was spinning so much about the different direction it went it, i didn’t realise the value until i had left. For the first time since i started with you, we didn’t focus on the losses and the difficulties… Continue reading The strength of a superwoman… (IVF Therapy)
I recall my in-laws joking with us for being in a committed relationship whilst we were in our early 20’s and at uni – and suddenly, here we are, looking at his younger siblings, now married and raising their young children. The loss isn’t just a physical and emotional loss of our own babies and what… Continue reading Infertility and Inclusion
Is it fair to compare the loss of a baby of someone who has been actively trying to conceive with that of someone who “accidentally” conceived in a former relationship? Forgive me if this is controversial. My experience of conceiving has been somewhat intense. I’ve peed on a stick most mornings, whether to check the… Continue reading The risk of relating: mine versus yours