What part of insensitive can you not understand?

Honestly, it baffles me.  The days when my place of work served as a needed escape from my own baby related issues are long gone.  Of course the topic is always going to surface in some way, but seriously, I am astounded.  You are an intelligent group of people – you represent elite universities including… Continue reading What part of insensitive can you not understand?

The strength of a superwoman… (IVF Therapy)

Dear therapist, You got me thinking.  I wasn’t sure how our session went yesterday, but my head was spinning so much about the different direction it went it, i didn’t realise the value until i had left. For the first time since i started with you, we didn’t focus on the losses and the difficulties… Continue reading The strength of a superwoman… (IVF Therapy)

Boy, it sucks to be a woman #careerquandaries

Today I am sitting at work, feeling slightly worthless and with a looming sense of doom as I am now 2 months from my 33rd birthday.  In many respects, my career choices – and my husband’s- have been to blame for our current situation.  It started when I was 16, a little bit like this:… Continue reading Boy, it sucks to be a woman #careerquandaries

Round and Round we go

I’ve become someone I loathe.  I’ve become my own situation.  I’ve let this journey of grief overcome me.  I feel done.  Heartbroken.  Tired.  Bored.  Sad.  Longing for my naivety, remembering how it felt to have hopes of a summer baby as soon as we started this journey.  Recalling those first joyful tears I cried in… Continue reading Round and Round we go

Infertility and Inclusion

I recall my in-laws joking with us for being in a committed relationship whilst we were in our early 20’s and at uni – and suddenly, here we are, looking at his younger siblings, now married and raising their young children. The loss isn’t just a physical and emotional loss of our own babies and what… Continue reading Infertility and Inclusion