Is it fair to compare the loss of a baby of someone who has been actively trying to conceive with that of someone who “accidentally” conceived in a former relationship? Forgive me if this is controversial. My experience of conceiving has been somewhat intense. I’ve peed on a stick most mornings, whether to check the… Continue reading The risk of relating: mine versus yours
It’s a bizarre thought really, but, two things have recently highlighted my somewhat fractured relationship with my womb. It isn’t something i would have otherwise given much thought to – but, in view of the 3 surgeries, the disturbing amount of blood i lost afterwards, the scar wounds from my ectopic and the slow pace… Continue reading Making friends with my womb
Miscarried. Misinterpreted. Mistaken. Why do these words all denote a sense of personal liability, of clumsiness, carelessness and guilt? The loss of my own babies and the future vision i shared with each pregnancy, the grief i carry for each traumatic termination, is totally undermined by the connotations of a “miscarriage”. It is a word… Continue reading The misconception of miscarriage
I am vulnerable, I am hurt, I am struggling, I am looking for answers, I am done with pain, but, I am great. A wise lady recently taught me the power of “I Am”, in light of her own battles, and it fits perfectly with my own intentions.
I am blogging to share my journey from profound pain to greatness, and to use my experiences as a platform to become the best person I can be. Life has thrown me around and knocked me down with grief, loss and fertility issues, and in doing so it has thrown me onto a new path and forced me to look deep within.
I will not be defined by my pain, but I am using it in the most positive way I can: I am working on my own deep connection, to understand myself, to understand circumstance, to re-connect with the universe and to become a better person every day.
No matter what, I am great. We can all keep this affirmation close to our hearts.
Welcome to my journey.