IVF: InVincible Focus

I mean, i don’t get off on injecting myself, but at least each evening i can feel like i am pushing on through another day, another moment closer through this torturous journey – perhaps on my way to our miracle.  I am certainly not a fan of my latest addition to my evening stomach spearing… Continue reading IVF: InVincible Focus

The future is bright

I was wearing simple loose “boyfriend” jeans, rolled up at the ends, some kind of flat trainers and a plain navy blue jumper.  Our kitchen had old wooden flooring and my laptop was perched on the same kitchen table we have now, where I was working on something related to maternity Mindfulness for “Baby I Am… Continue reading The future is bright

Failing in friendships: fertility vs friends

Dear friends, I probably owe you an explanation. I know I’ve been absent these last few years, and I don’t intend on always being in hiding, so I hope that door is still going to be open in the future. Some of you have tried to reach out, to offer to meet, have a coffee,… Continue reading Failing in friendships: fertility vs friends

Infertility and Inclusion

I recall my in-laws joking with us for being in a committed relationship whilst we were in our early 20’s and at uni – and suddenly, here we are, looking at his younger siblings, now married and raising their young children. The loss isn’t just a physical and emotional loss of our own babies and what… Continue reading Infertility and Inclusion

The misconception of miscarriage

Miscarried.  Misinterpreted.  Mistaken. Why do these words all denote a sense of personal liability, of clumsiness, carelessness and guilt? The loss of my own babies and the future vision i shared with each pregnancy, the grief i carry for each traumatic termination, is totally undermined by the connotations of a “miscarriage”.  It is a word… Continue reading The misconception of miscarriage